Lonely

So for some reason, I have a really hard time making friends. That is probably the hardest thing about moving for me. We have been here 5 months, so I know it isn't' a really long time, but I would like to have a friend. I have some who live with in an hours drive, but I need someone closer.

I have been praying, and trying to see who I can serve. I have been trying to reach out to others, but I feel like no one needs me. That is a very discouraging feeling.

Last night I went to a ward enrichment meeting, (A gathering of the women in our congregation), that was held explicitly for the purpose of letting the women visit. I kept approaching people and trying to talk to them, and they would talk to me for a minute, and then move away to talk to someone else. I don't think any of them were trying to be mean. I think they were just trying to mingle. But it left me with the feeling that no one really wanted to talk to me. I started feeling really dejected, and said a little prayer, hoping I wasn't going to start crying. I then went and sat down by myself, because I just didn't know what else to do. At this point I had one woman call me over and introduce me to the person sitting by her. I then sat there and listened to side conversations. This was better than nothing, but still not really inclusive. I tried to give my input, but felt like no one really wanted to listen. Then finally during the last 5 or 10 min, someone approached me and started talking to me. That helped a whole lot, but I still ended the evening feeling kind of dejected and alone.

I really felt strongly, when we were looking for a house that this is where the Lord wants us. I just wish I knew why. So far all I do is stay at home and be a mom to my kids. Which is important, but I could do that anywhere. So why am I here?

A reunion

So this last weekend we went to the other side of the state to visit my husbands family. One of his sisters lives in Alaska and we hadn't seen her since last September, and we hadn't seen her husband since Cinderella was Guy's age. They had flown down for the weekend so we headed over. We stayed at one of my sister-in-law's house, and since she attends a singles ward (a congregation of our church made up of single adults from 18-30) we really didn't want to take our kids there for church.
However I have a roommate from my college days, Brandi, who lives in that same town with her husband Adam. So I called her up and asked if we could go to church with them. I haven't seen Brandi since college so it was fun to get together with her again.
They invited us over for lunch afterward which was a real treat. They have two Pomeranians, Piper and Bowser. They let Piper into the house and my kids just went crazy. Wow they loved playing with that dog. Guy was having the time of his life. They chased Piper all over. Guy did get frightened once when Adam had Piper growling, and barking at the reflection from his watch. But I quickly showed him that the dog was nice and he was right back into the action of chasing again.



Cinderella loved interacting with Adam. He was very responsive and interactive with her. In fact I was looking at their blog earlier today and Cinderella said to me, "It's Adam and Eve." I thought it was funny. She definitely remembered Adams name, and Eve is the name she hears associated with Adam the most. Brandi and Adam are currently working on becoming adoptive parents. I hope it works out for them soon. I think they will be great parents.
I am grateful they let us come and visit. It is always fun to get together with old friends.